Good show

putting on a good face,
smiling through the waterworks
that grow inside
too much to hide
but just right
there on the surface
of the gloss
that covers my eyez
deeper than
i ever thought possible
so profound
and caressing
filling with the purpose
to yesterday's sorrows
and tomorrow's funerals
the grand opening of a circus show,
wolf inside sheep's clothing.
too much to keep track of
my dangerous urges
that lurk along the surface
of the edges of my hands
that caress you
that creep into the soul of you, then
take control over me,
overpower me,
we struggle over
the bedframe
and let you flow into the deepest parts
that are angry.
I've pasted on a brightly lit smile
with twinkle starlight eyez,
a hearty loud laugh,
the conversations are neverending
i'm the happiest person you ever saw



and I've fooled them all.