I'ma stick in the mud

Show me your swollen memories before the moment's stolen
Swollen pride as it lays dead in your hands,
can't keep up with the insults that the world serves on a platter
The daily dose of reality that is gorey and green
envious and mean,
perverted the children into pornographic beings
Every day is a dream and I'm really awake when I'm asleep.
I've been holding this bloody mess together
to not set off alarms
in the eyez that are watching all the time.
Show me your swollen human heart before the moment's broken.


Cleaning myself of this mess.
This bloody mess that seems to never end! A constant battle or perhaps series of battles that I don't want to win. I remember back when I was younger. The first thing that teach you when you come into this world, are the values of your culture.


My Culture Always Said YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE YOUR BLOOD FAMILY. No matter how much they hurt you. backstab you. betray you. steal from you. abuse you. brainwash you. WHATEVER THE CASE MAY BE; As Mexicans, no matter how dysfunctional your blood family is you NEVER completely leave them out of the picture. If this means you are held down, then you better suck it up and pull up the whole entire family.