it's been so long since we've talked. Almost a year of silence but it's been longer than that since we've had a real conversation. You won't talk to me anymore and refuse to make amends. I can't say I'm surprised, you scorpio, you. We both were raised to hold grudges so it makes sense that you hate me for leaving you. I figure since it'll be awhile until you get over yourself I'll just write you letters, although, I've been writing you poems and prose since I can remember. All this time that we were in silence I wrote to you, telling you my life stories and my secrets. I thought our loyalty to one another would be forever. Two scorpio children that went through hell together.
I can't say that i agree with every choice you've made but I can tell you that every time I look at you I'm amazed at how much you've grow up. I remember when we were little and we used to do dancing and singing shows together for mom. Everything I did, you wanted to do too. And I always wanted you around to talk to. For years you were my best friend and you still could be. Although my secrets were spilled, it's just milk and I forgave you because you didn't know any better.
I don't know what you've gone through these last couple of years, once I got into college you closed yourself off from me and I tried to pull you close, maybe i could have tried harder or maybe you could have tried harder but i missed you. Meli, I wish I could call you. I wish I could talk to you and get high like we used to and do stupid shit until we were on the floor red and laughing with stomach pains. On your 18th birthday coming up I hope you are around, I have surprise for you. I hope you put aside the fingers that you keep pointing at me and let me show you how much i still love you.
baby sister, forgive me for the pain I put you through. Please say you are sorry too.....
Love your big sister,
Rosey
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